I Wish..♥

I wish I didn't wake up wishing I hadn't.

I wish I didn't hurt myself.

I wish I didn't most of the time cry myself to sleep.

I wish I wasn't fat!

I wish I could be good enough; for you, them && me!

I wish I could enjoy things again.

I wish I could cope with company.

I wish I could truely articulate how I feel.

I wish I had someone special in my life.

I wish I hadn't fucked up every part of my life.

I wish I'd told on him sooner.

I wish I knew what you were really like.

I wish I hadn't told you all my secrets.

I wish you didn't know how much you meant to me.

I wish that I didn't believe you like I do.

I wish I could understand why?!

Sometimes I wish I could just kill you and not get in trouble for it.

I wish you'd never saved me that time.

I wish that I didn't think having a 'friend' was worth all the pain.

I wish you'd actually valued me as a person.

I wish I could hate you for what YOU'VE done, instead I just hate myself more.

I wish I'd trusted my family enough to tell.

I wish I'd told the teachers who were so worried about me.

I wish I'd taken the different chances I was given to tell.

I wish I wasn't so scared.

I wish I didn't love him like I do.

I wish I'd agreed to stay in hospital longer when it was suggested.

 

I still wish I was dead.

I still wish I didn't wake up every morning.

I still wish I didn't love you like I do.

I still wish I wasn't so scared.

I still wish I could understand why?!

I still struggle to trust my family..&& everyone else.

I still don't know how to properly articulate how I feel or trust people enough to say things I know I should.

I still wish I wasn't fat.

I still wish I was good enough; for you, them && me.

I wish I had a thousand wishes!